back to black.

i have taken a loooong hiatus from this site... i even forgot my password and name. lol! life has definitely been crazy on this end. but, gladly, i see a light at the end of the tunnel.

yesterday i rattled off to a good friend my 'to-do' list for today. wake. scriptures. breakfast. school drop off. preschool drop off. run. home cleaning. dinner prep and cook. preschool pick up. home cleaning. office organizing. hubby home/ serve dinner. bus pick up. serve dinner (again). piano. scout drop off. scout pick up.... by the time this is done it is 8:45... that's if I wasn't stopped in the hallway to chit chat about this and that and who and where.

THIS had been my life since my last post. I am beat. red. but just like a good run on a hot sunny day... the reward is realizing you made it. the run is over. your time is better. and you feel stronger. (although some days do drag on... just like a good run.) but you feel better. like you can handle it all.

anywho, the light at the end of the tunnel is leaving me with mixed emotions.



my BABY (the little monkey, front and CENTER) will be going to school this august. i'm feeling a bit anxious. not for him... because he's been ready to be out, doing his own thing. the anxiety is for moi. WHAT in the heck am I gonna do at home while ALL the kids are away?? THIS has been my life for the last 11+ years. along side my photography... all i've surrounded my life with has been pregnancy, nursing and rearing these babies. it's been amazing. it's been HARD. it's been sooo much fun... but i'm not quite sure what's next.

in the next few months my plan is to chronicle my experience of approaching this next phase.

new baby?... new project?... new job?...

who knows.... all i know is i wanna take it all back. back to black.